Overwhelming // College4:20:00 PM
Have you ever been just so overwhelmed that you just shut down for a little bit? That moment when curling up in your bed for a few weeks sounds like the perfect idea. Or when all you want to eat is junk food because of all the stress and anxiety that is building up. Step number one: breathe.
I'm not one who usually handles pressure and approaching deadlines well, but I manage to get it all done and excel at it. I decided that I'll share a few things bothering me and hopefully someone out there can relate or gain something from all of this.
1. Studying subjects you don't care about
I absolutely hate accounting. It's not my major, so why must I study it? They say it's to understand how the company works, but honestly I won't remember everything I learned in my first year at college. So, on to study for my accounting test I go.
2. Constant homesickness
But it isn't just an "I miss home". It's a I miss having mom and dad's opinions and I miss the pets and I miss being a kid. Home reminds you of all of those things and "homesickness" is the best and first term that comes to mind when you're trying to explain it. Pictures don't really help me all too much, texting is nice, but phone calls honestly make me miss it even more. But you have to remember that it isn't really gone. It'll be there this weekend, it'll be there over break, it'll always be there to welcome you home. Just remember that.
3. Getting Involved
You're supposed to be getting involved with things you're interested in, but if you don't know what you're interested in, how do you pick? You just put them all in a hat then stir it around and poof there's your "involvement"? What defines involvement? Is being a member of a club involvement or do you have to be in a leadership role? These things aren't defined clearly and for some people it runs along a very thin line. Although the expectations of what involvement are, are not clear, doing something you love is always a safe place to start.
These are just a few things that I don't like about college. People say they are the best four years of your life, but how can you decide that when you haven't lived the rest of your years yet? And besides I don't want the best four years of my life, I want the best life from all my years.